memento

and for the second time, i wish with all my heart that memory erasure is possible. another eternal sunshine-is wish.

thanks to les, krish and don (special mention sila) for their concern during ondoy. na-touch ako awww.. &65 (kahit di man binaha street namin).

i can now officially say i hate my life. 

shame on those who take advantage of our country's situation.

this afternoon, i saw people who live near our subdivision walking back to their homes laden with bags full of rice (and canned goods, perhaps; based on the outline). these people were not affected by the flood. our subdivision was spared from devastation, unlike those in the surrounding areas, yet those people still lined up to get food from whoever it was distributing near our area. it made me wonder why that person/org or whatever distributed goods in our area when we were not affected at all.

what, a good soul suddenly decided to donate rice and whatnot to unaffected and perfectly healthy people? cmon. it's low even for trashy trapos to take advantage of the situation. please wag naman ngayon.

There goes the last of our heroes. Maybe it's a sign that we need to stand on our own two feet now and to stop looking for someone to lead us.   

Farewell in the other life Pres. Cory Aquino, and thank you for uniting the nation.

im throwing out 6 yrs' worth of junk in my steel cabinet. i need to make room for papers that i would eventually throw out again in a few years' time.

journal entries, highschool and (expensively paid for) college notes and random doodle and writings... these are just a few of the stuff i need to throw out.

it's a little bit painful to remember memories that go along with them, but no use remembering and feeling sentimental now. the future's a whole lot different than what i envisioned it would be. remembering will just anchor me back to the past.

and along with this task is a new discovery: dreams, like relationships, also need closures.





then, goodbye to the dreams of yesteryears.

m not a concert-goer. in fact i've never been to a concert before. but i'd mortgage our house just to grab a ticket for any of these 3's concert:







this sudden itch to watch my favorite musicians' concerts was brought upon by the AI finale performance with Queen and Kiss. i was not able to follow AI this season, and didn't even get to watch the Finale. curiousity got the better of me, though, when a lot of people made a fuss about the result, so i decided to watch the finale on youtube.
and hollow crap!

got goosebumps while watching the 2 finalists' performance with Queen! Adam Lambert was wow. as in WOW. it's the only word i can think of to describe his performance. @_@ i wonder why Kris Allen won.

and KISS (the KISS!) on AI! wth. i missed out on a lot of good stuff tsk.

hmm. rumor has it that KISS already asked Adam to be its guest in its concert tour, and that Queen is eyeing Adam to be its frontman (for Bohemian Rhapsody, i think). Freddie Mercury is undeniably irreplaceable. but Adam's version is bound to be just as interesting, i guess.

WOW. Adam is one lucky loser.



p.s. paula and kara looked stupid throughout the Queen stint.

i think im going crazy. aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Be it Hanazawa Rui, Hua Ze Lei or Yoon Ji Hoo. but i think i like Kim Hyun Joong's portrayal of Rui the best.

nvm if he looks prettier than me.

 

that's all :D

i leave you with my LSS of the day:

i'm going to...

dance the night away

smile at a random stranger

give out my number to a guy in starbucks

paint my nails red

watch the sun rise in the pacific.

i'm going to take a huge leap of faith, and trust God to take me where I belong. 

and he never forgets.

it was never because of the price tag attached to it.

that's all. :)










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Babble Schmabbles and Quarterlife Crisis
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contrary to popular belief, i'm not a highschool kid. i'm 23 years old (going 24), and currently suffering from quarter-life crisis. 

cholo and i talked a lot about momol (no, not the details. just my lack of awareness thereof. see, i havent lost my innocence), overprotective parents, adult sensibilities and whatnots. it's fun to talk about random things for a change, besides school and career.

i need space from School. as if it's THAT understanding.

*******

i'm on a self-imposed exile. long story. but wala akong K magdemand. so... poor kid me.

*******

sinong amo?

1830H
me: "Mang ****? Bukas ano makakapunta ho ba kayo mamaya? Hindi ko pa ho kasi alam kung merong magsusundo sa akin mamaya."

Him: "Ay madam, blah blah blah. Bukas na lang ho."

Me: "Eh baka ho kasi walang magsundo sa 'kin."

Him: "Bukas na lang, hindi pwede ngayon madam."


parang naging useless ang word na "madam" sa conversation na 'to.

from http://www.vinvinjacla.com/2008/12/takipsilim-filipino-version-of-twilight.html

Rayver and Shaina to star in the TV remake of “Twilight”
By : Edgar O. Cruz Entertainment Editor23
December 2008 9:31 AM

Rayver Cruz will star as Edward Cullen and Shaina Magdayao as Isabella Swan in the local television version “Twilight.” The hit vampire novel has been bought by ABS-CBN has bought for more than US$1 million with Ignite Media as co producer. The taping is set to start next year by Feb. in Baguio, Tagaytay, Bukidnon with some parts to be shot abroad. To be directed by Cathy Garcia Molina, the TV adaptation will focus on Edward and Bella’s love story to be treated as drama, romance and fantasy. The unofficial cast includes Valeen Montenegro as Alice Cullen, Gabby Concepcion as Dr. Carlisle Cullen, Luis Manzano as Emmett Cullen, Al Tantay as Charlie Swan, Yayo Aguila as Renee Dwyer, Fred Payawan as Jacob Black, Carlos Agassi as James, Chin Chin Gutierrez as Esme Cullen, Karylle as Rosalie Hale, Joross Gamboa as Jasper Hale, Jessy Mendiola as Jessica Stanley, Empress Schuck as Angela Weber, Brad Murdoch as Laurent, Nikki Bacolod as Victoria and Aaron Villaflor as Mike Newton. Rayver and Shaina were former love team partner but the tandem did not work. It seems their tandem will click in “Twilight.”



if this is really true...

omg.



*dies*

this isn't going to be a film review, but there may be possible spoilers. please don't read if you're planning to watch the movie :D


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the movie screams bloody murder of the book. and i thought the film adaptation of Harry Potter and The Sorcerer's Stone was bad.  there are lots of other low-budget films out there that fared better than this one.

the acting was a disaster. Bella was... #!$$^$@^&@% and Edward was $#$%@$%&^&.  i expected more from Pattinson, but... he had some great moments, at least. but Bella, homaygas... Stewart's perfect as Bella, physically. that's it. the girl can't act. make-up? anak ng balyena. parang naglagay na lang sila ng mud pack sa mukha sa sobrang obvious na make up lang. nakakaiyak talaga ang production. T_T editing... lahat na talaga.

to be fair, there are a few parts of the movie that weren't all that bad. the baseball scene was great, liked it :D charlie was ok, he was funny, in an odd sort of way. carlisle was HOT. edward was too, especially during the scene where he and bella went to school together using his car, and when he got out he was wearing a pair of shades, and the other kids were oggling at them :)) and i looove the hot Volvo car! i've seen a few of those around the city just this week.

disappointed talaga ako. binabaan ko na nga expectations ko kasi pangit reviews, pero di talaga ako prepared kung gaano kapangit yung movie :(( :))

i want a refund T_T

one more thing: the lines were poorly delivered! what happened to "you are my life now?" i didn't notice if edward said it. the "heroin" and "and the lion fell in love with the lamb" lines were awkwardly delivered. sheesh. bad enough they murdered the book, they mutilated the killer lines!!! pati kilig factor pinatay. hay.

there's no denying i'm a bad person. i don't pretend to be morally good and upright. i lie, cheat, steal, backstab other people, stalk, break promises and did a lot more bad things in the 23 years i'm alive.

but please, don't accuse me of being selfish and self-centered. that's all i ask. there are times when i can't help but savor the few moments whenever i get what i want.

you may not have meant it because you were upset and irritated with what you found out, but the fact that you just blurted it out in the middle of an irrelevant topic makes me believe that that's what you've always thought of me... i stayed, knowing you were still in love with somebody else. i wouldn't have, if my basis of giving away my affection is if it can be reciprocated. i suffered because of you, so don't tell me i am that kind of person. but maybe you have a point, because i chose to stick with you and to be satisfied with just your presence, even if i knew for a fact that you don't love me back then.

i forgive you, even if you haven't asked for it, nor if you think it's just a small and insignificant misunderstand.  it means a lot for me, though, because maybe i would be so much happier if i just allow myself to be really selfish and just do what i want. it was always you and my family, above me and everything else, always.

dahil praning ako:

1. corp - so-so.
2. tax - coming soon.
3. civ pro - dismal.
4. admin. - wala pa.
5. ethics - meh.
6. public international law - dismal.

wow. watta sem. masakit pa, PIL candidate na ko sa bagsak. homaygas. Lord, kung kelan nagdasal ako the night before kahit di ko ugali yun, tsaka niyo ko pinarusahan :((

just finished reading New Moon - book 2 of the Twilight series, and am currently reading Eclipse - book 3 of the series. i read Twilight yesterday, and finished it in half a day :)) the books were good enough for a light read, but it isn't as extraordinary as i thought it would be.  it's sort of like a vampire version of Sweet Valley High :)) kae was right; am halfway through book 3, and the whole story's turning out to be a vampire version of Fushigi Yuugi *cringes at the thought*

it's ok, though. i need a breather from heavy readings after months of poring over law books. the book i read was Gabriel Garcia Marquez's Love In The Time of Cholera, and it also used up quite a number of my brain cells, so... i'm not complaining... much.

BUT (and this is the embarassing part):

i'm crushing Edward Cullen *squeals* 

that is, when he's not being emo vamp and stupid. or is it because i can already picture Robert Pattinson as Cullen because of the movie ads? :))  i didn't find Pattinson handsome as Diggory in Harry potter; i guess he's more suited to be a vampire than a wizard.


and, though i'm not exactly the brave type to stand supernatural experiences, i won't mind if i get a visit from this particular creature:                                     


homaygas. ang gwapo niya dito XD


i won't try to sell the series itself, coz i have a high tolerance for sappy romance novels. but i can say that Twilight is nowhere near Anne Rice material - although i noticed that there are similarities between Rice's Louis and Edward.

anyway, can't wait to see the movie, more because of Cullen's character than the story XD  i think Twilight is the best among the three books i've read so far.

 

i have 3 options to choose from this sembreak: 1) karate 2) taekwondo 3) cardio boxing

OR

save money, wait for january, and push through with kendo. there's a catch, though. kendo depends if my schedule next sem will permit it.

hmm.



*****

i should be happy with news left and right about people getting hitched for life, but i can't help feeling a little melancholic, because i know, that won't happen to me anytime soon. and although it is still possible, i did some stupid things to tilt it near impossibility. *sigh* i could have been so happy...


On Wednesday: i need to make sure Venus is in the 12th House and that Mars is feeling particularly gracious and peace-loving. i also hope Loki behaves - no no to mischief on Wed.


*****

i promise i will try my best not become like him.

Rules:

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T : You're loyal to those you love.
O : Easy to fall in love with.
L : Everyone loves you.
E : Awesome in bed.
N :You are great in bed.
T : You're loyal to those you love.
I : You really like to drink.
N :You are great in bed.
O : Easy to fall in love with.


it seems i'm a lovable person :)) jk

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Z : Always ready

and probably with intent to gain, but forgot to take Frown with him.

It's ok, I can slap him with Theft, anyway. :D



1 week pa! let's go blockmates!

I lack coherence tonight (more than usual), so I'm just going to write whatever it is I want to write about without thinking of the rules of writing :D

-Happy birthday Krish!

-Thurs. na naman bukas.. which means another hell day. I envy those who were already called in Sales. *sigh*

-i want to buy at Ilaya, but dang it their stuff's expensive

-can't wait for weekend. BAKER'S DOZEN at Powerplant Rockwell!!! for pastry lovers like me!

-I wanna drop by Sofitel after 8pm, becos they take 50% off the pastries by that time
 
-Dad jokingly told me to find a job already. i told him i would, if only i could find a good-paying job, and that i don't want to work in a call center because i won't be able to buy him a new car if i did. points for me! (well Dad, i would love to stop studying, seriously, if only i could really find a decent job)

-got a new baby, but can't post pics yet because i gave it in trust to its grantor/donor/gift-or? :p i can't use it yet coz it will be detrimental to my grades

-i wish i'm back in the states. mostly becos i miss my brief carefree life there haha. and it miss she. i miss her the most whenever i don't want to feel all grown up and responsible haha

-i wanna gloat (becos im listening to the jerry maguire soundtrack and i know it applies, and it's funny): i had that person at hello! haha

-low-carb diet doesn't work for me. and i'm too lazy to exercise. im destined to be fat forever. boo

-menu for today: lamb chops (i think) + mint jelly and clam chowder = delish!

-yesterday: choco oatmeal cookies from Estrell's. last week: turtle pie/cake, red velvet cupcake and dimsum and yummy pork belly. no wonder i'm not losing weight.

-hmm... i'm getting spoiled

-maybe i'll go on a retreat

-last week was a blur of emotions. while i don't usually give in to bias, i'll make an exception this time.

-this week is tiring. it's mostly becos of choosing between baloney or macaroni. tapusin na natin to pwede baaa! tawagin mo na ko sa topic na alam ko!!!

now then. there's still work to be done. on to another ordinary day in the life of me.



P.S. ponder on this:

"Democracy becomes a government of bullies tempered by editors." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

right now, i want to kill a very fat, very bald and obnoxious gay.
and i bet i'm not the only one itching to do it.  the nerve of him!


*fumes*
 


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